Hello my fellow humans. I want to begin by telling you a little bit about myself. I realize that very few of you care, but perhaps there are some among you that will.
My given name is Michael. I am a white male living in the United States. I work a blue collar job currently but I have worked in white collar professions as well. I am in my late 40’s and am divorced. I have raised two children to adulthood and I love them very much. I guess in a way, I am doing this for them more than anyone else, but more on that later…
I have lived poor. I have lived well. And I have lived in jail. I am a recovering drunk and today is my 755th day without taking a drink. if it were not for the love of family, the program of Alcoholics Anonymous and the benevolence of a “Higher Power”, I am certain that I would not be here to type these words…
My life has been spared many, many times over the years. I was never sure why before, it just seemed to me that I got lucky or that it was just random chance that allowed me to walk away from things like car crashes, bar brawls, etc. without paying the ultimate price for my misadventures.
Because of my certainty that it can only be due to the protection of a Higher Power that I still live and breathe, I feel that I can not only no longer consume alcohol, but that I must also shoulder my responsibility to the world around me. I have taken so much and given so little. So I guess that you could say that this is in part how I will attempt to make some amends…
Awhile back something happened to me. I’m not sure how to describe it really. Ideas and questions started coming to me that definitely didn’t seem like they were coming “from” me… I started filling up notebooks with writing on various topics that I previously had zero interest in. I went through a period where I didn’t really eat or sleep, I just read, wrote, researched, and continued to receive these insights, ideas, and questions. Lots and LOTS of questions. Questions that I hadn’t seen asked or addressed anywhere…
As I am sure that you all out there are aware, we are living in unprecedented times. It seems as if the entire world has gone crazy. Sometimes I am so flabbergasted by what I see and hear nowadays that I wonder aloud if I’M the one who has lost it… I think that maybe that’s part of the plan. Maybe not. Perhaps there is no “plan”, and this is just what happens eventually… But I don’t believe that. Not at all. Perhaps there are others out there among you who feel the same way…?
I wonder if any of you out there are getting pissed off? Do any of you look around and ask… “750 million years of evolution and this is the shit we have to show for it”??? I find myself asking this question every day now. Are we as a species going to continue our current trajectory toward extinction or can we perhaps overcome our seeming addiction to self destruction?
I listened to a conversation earlier between Chris Williamson and Eric Weinstein in which Mr. Weinstein bemoaned the decline of elite universities and in particular the study of physics. I admired his honesty. Not exactly a ton of that going around these days… I also admired him for “calling out” Edward Witten. Mr. Witten ought respond and defend his position, or hang his head in shame and disgrace for ever daring to call himself a scientist.
Truth. Honesty. Ethics.
The program of recovery that saved my life tells me about “grasping and developing a manner of living which demands rigorous honesty”. In the two years that I have been on this path, a lot of things have become clearer to me than they were when I was actively drinking. Most of these things are truths about me, but some are about the world around me and the human beings I share the planet with…
Another concept that bears mentioning is “principles before personalities”. Sometimes the truth is gonna sting… but without it, what do you have, really? If I am in a “survival situation”, I’m gonna gravitate toward humans who tell the truth, seek the truth and relentlessly pursue the truth regardless of where it lands them in the “popularity contest” of our modern civilization.
Because I’m stuck here with you, I care a great deal about where we are going, and whether or not we as a species even care about the TRUTH anymore. I would submit that our continued survival and evolution will hinge upon our ability to use the tools we have developed thus far to solve existential problems and rigorously pursue the TRUTH.
Not “my” truth.
Not “your” truth.
The TRUTH.
We gotta talk about all this. Honestly and soon. Humanity is poised for another global military conflict while simultaneously awaiting the next plague cooked up in a biolab… This is madness. If anyone out there wants to figure out some solutions, then let’s get to it.
I have a lot more to say, but this has gotten too long already. For now, I leave you with the words of a man far better with words than I.
“Turning and turning in the widening gyre
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity.”
– W. B. Yeats
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The heart-based path of spiritual transcendence is chosen by so few because it’s the most honest, true, and hard-earned.
People are generally economical creatures who prefer excuses & shortcuts due to lack of energy, blockages, and an uncomfortableness with being direct with themselves, i.e. radical self-honesty, self-acceptance, and submission of ego to the spirit/divine impulse.
That said, the heart isn’t necessary for attaining psychic powers or even transcending to another realm, as there are tantric / occult methods that use the “lower loosh energies” to override 5-senses & physics.
But, the heart path is indispensable for doing it right, because you thereby attain the proper “license key” instead of hacking/torrenting your way to “abilities.”
Now, notice how the Age of Taurus (bull = ka = etheric energy in Egyptian) introduced etheric training & virility enhancing systems. As discussed in the Indian epics, this was often necessary to make use of demiurgic technologies (divine weapons, aka alien technologies). Mounds, megaliths, “Wands of Horus”, ankhs, bull sacrifices to harvest blood and lifeforce energy, etc. all reached their peak during that age.
The Age of Aries saw submission to a divine father/authority figure. We see that both with early Judaism and Akhenaten’s cult.
The Age of Pisces, the path of heart & emotions. Christianity, Islam, Sufism, Dionysian cults. Very obvious, with all their Piscean emotionalism & intoxication.
And now with the Age of Aquarius, mental gnosis/revelation of Truth.
Ideally, these must be combined into a full spectrum transcendence system that make use of all our natural subtle energy layers & functions. I think that’s what we’re being moved toward, ultimately.
The historical sequential process of getting various layers/system introduced and online in human culture (well, within mystery schools at least) shows there’s a logic & order to it.
Which is why I’ve mentioned the idea of beings who are practicing “planetary alchemy” on us, transmuting base metal into gold, base ore into the Philosopher’s Stone, with all the calcinations (cyclical solar micronovas) and lavigations (floodings) and conjunctions (merger of Eastern and Western occult streams) that you find in Alchemy.
Except, just as there are both wizards & warlocks, priestesses & witches, Christ and antichrist, etc. there are also “good Alchemists” & “evil Alchemists.”
And so, planetary alchemical engineering is a dual/dueling process between the forces of light & forces of darkness, both possessing superior knowledge, technology, and occult powers but directed toward opposite spiritual ends.
The dark ones are pushing humanity toward transhumanism, AI/robotic enslavement, genetic hybridization with Greys, and all that “Eighth Sphere” stuff, to cement “The Fall of Man” into a permanent coma at the bottom of a spiritual black hole.
The good ones are seeking to bring about the “Reign of Wisdom” – “Then we shall see only heroes born; the least of our children will have the strength of Zoroaster, Apollonius or Melchizedek; and most of them will be as accomplished as the children Adam would have had by Eve had he not sinned with her.” (Comte de Gabalis, 1670).
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Reflection
It has been WAY to long since I have posted last.
I have been going through SO much change it is crazy, but on today’s subject is reflection.
Not the type you might see in a pool or mirror exactly, but more on that later.
When I talk to people, and I talk to a lot of people, I always find it interesting. People, other beings that have their own life, their own stories.
When I talk to them, sometimes they will be angry or sad, or happy.
Of course the happy ones are my favorite and then the sad ones, and last.. the angry ones.
It can be hard to the angry ones. What is important, and I can’t stress this enough, is that when they are angry or show different emotions, WE are not the ones they are angry at.
They are simply reflecting on themselves. Hurt people, hurt people.
They are taking their wounds and pain, out on you.
They are taking their worries and fears, out on you.
They are taking their sorrows and tears, out on you
They are taking their joys and triumphs, out on you.
We reflect ourselves to others. This is why it is so important to know your self. Self reflection is a rare find these days, because who like to see their faults as well as their talents?
This is to all of you out there, who deal with hurt people on a daily basis. Every person that you meet is a hurt person, whether now or in the future or the past, at some point they will be hurt.
In dealing with yourself, you are most likely to dealing with a hurt person.
We need to all take a moment and reflect on ourselves. Look into that mirror and see yourself truly for who and what you are. Do not hide anything, look at the beauty and the ugliness.
This is necessary to grow.
If we are stuck in a place where we can’t see ourselves, I can’t think of a worse fate, for then everyone else will see something that we ourselves are not aware of, or that we CHOOSE not to see.
Don’t be fooled, what we see IS a choice when we look into that mirror.
What/who do you see?
All this to say 1.When you get off the phone with someone who was truly hurtful, realize it isn’t you, but themselves they are showing.
Everyone will show who they really are in time.
And 2. It is perhaps one of the most important abilities you will ever have, to see, to TRULY see yourself for who you really are.
Fly High.
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