Do not try to breakthrough your programming Try to increase your awareness 🕊🌟

by apollosolaris

When your awareness sees your programming
You naturally choose not to follow your programming

— Inner Practitioner (@MindTendencies)

I GREW UP BELIEVING MY FATHER WAS AN ALCOHOLIC AND CHOSE ALCOHOL OVER OF HIS FAMILY. HE DIED WHEN I WAS 11. IN 2019 2 YEARS AFTER MY AUNT PASSED AWAY I RECEIVED A BOX OF MY FATHERS THINGS THAT SHE KEPT IN STORAGE IN HER GARAGE. IN IT WAS A NOTEBOOK – HIS JOURNAL.

I LEARNED OF THE TRAUMA MY FATHER ENDURED WHEN HE WAS 16 – HIS UNCLE (WHO WAS LIKE A SECOND FATHER TO HIM) DIED IN HIS ARMS (HE OVERDOSED ON PILLS AND ALCOHOL – SUICIDE)

WHEN MY FATHER TOLD HIS PARENTS (MY GRANDPARENTS) WHAT HAPPENED THEY TOLD HIM THAT WASN’T WHAT HAPPENED AND THAT HE DIED OF AN ALLERGIC REACTION TO PENICILLIN. MY FATHER WAS JUST 13 WHEN IT HAPPENED.

THEY COULDN’T RISK SUCH AN EVENT DESTROYING THE FAMILY NAME.

I COULDN’T READ BEYOND THE FIRST FEW PAGES. I ADORED MY GRANDPARENTS BUT IN THAT MOMENT I WAS SO ANGRY AT THEM FOR LETTING ME GROW UP BELIEVING MY FATHER WAS AN ALCOHOLIC.

20+ YEARS OF ME CARRYING TRAUMA FROM FEELING ABANDONED BY MY FATHER UNTIL I LEARNED HE WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN CARRYING TRAUMA HIS FAMILY DENIED EVER HAPPENED.

THIS WAS WHEN I FINALLY GRIEVED THE LOSS OF MY FATHER. MY ANGER AT HIM TURNED INTO UNBEARABLE HEARTBREAK FOR HIM WHICH HAS NOW TURNED INTO IMMENSE COMPASSION FOR HIM.

I’M OK NOW. IVE HEALED AND IVE FORGIVEN MY GRANDPARENTS, MY FATHER, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY MYSELF.

IM SHARING BECAUSE THIS IS HOW TRAUMA IS PASSED DOWN FROM GENERATION TO GENERATION.

DON’T CONTINUE YOUR FAMILY CYCLES OF TRAUMA. BE THE CYCLE BREAKER. HEAL. FORGIVE. SET YOURSELVES FREE.

— Erin

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